I gave myself permission to be. Be just where I was. It was uncomfortable. It was scary. But I made it through. This time was gifted to me. I know that sounds strange. I would not have believed it, had I not been through this journey. I never wanted the mess. I never wanted the tears. I never wanted the deep despair.
But through the mess, tears, and despair I managed to make something of it all. I'm able to love more deeply, cherish the little things, and empathize with those around me.
I have made it through this in-between and will await the next.
Today: Like most, I'm trying to figure things out. Sometimes that's day by day, moment by moment, and even breath by breath.