I was listening to this song the other day and the words really jumped out at me. This wasn't the first time I'd heard it. I often play this album when I'm trying to fall asleep. There is something soothing about it.
"Break the cycle
Break the chains
Cause love is louder than all your pain
Than all your pain"
Upon listening to it over and over again, I decided I would break the cycle and let love rule my life this coming year.
Jesus replied, “‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ The entire law and all the demands of the prophets are based on these two commandments.” Matthew 22: 37-40
In addition to these two commandments, I will love myself.
She loves me no matter what. Whether I have the energy to play with her or not.
She covers me with kisses and makes me forget what made me sad in the first place.
She showers me with 'I love you' at just the right moment.
I love her more than she will ever know.
I was in a much different place last year. I cannot tell you why. I just know I was not well. I did my usual routine of keeping to myself and not asking for help. What's that saying, 'insanity is doing the same thing in the same way & expecting a different outcome (or result).' How could I expect to get better when I wasn't willing to change.
As mentioned in a previous post, I did things a little different this summer. I went completely out of my comfort zone, in one case. I wouldn't say I had a life altering experience, but am I glad I did it. Yes. I am.
Maybe I have a better perspective on life. I certainly hope so. There are (so) many things I cannot control and the headaches caused by worry are just not worth it. For instance, despite trying to get adequate rest, eating better, taking vitamins, etc, I am still quite tired most days. I'm trying to not let that get me down and realize this is my reality. It has been for decades.
I can take the blah days. They will not get me down.
Today: Like most, I'm trying to figure things out. Sometimes that's day by day, moment by moment, and even breath by breath.