"I don't want to look back in five years time and think, 'We could have been magnificent, but I was afraid'. In five years I want to tell of how fear tried to cheat me out of the best thing in life, and I didn't let it" Unknown
I’ve been overwhelmed the last couple of days. Overwhelmed in a good way. The number of people who have told me how happy they are for me has made me feel appreciated and loved. When they are beaming because I am beaming, I think that says a lot.
Getting messages from friends I haven’t talked to in awhile and even receiving a figurative thumbs up from friends of friends makes me believe in love.
You have seen my journey and have been rooting for me. Silently you prayed for me. And with all that power I was nudged forward. Into a space I am so happy to be in.
Sometimes you just have to speak up. Thank you for sharing your voice, Denise. You are such a beautiful soul. - mnd xo
"It took me a lot of tries to get this picture right.
I remember the day so vividly with tears streaming down my eyes I recalled the story of a boy making fun of me at school to my parents.
He called me a " Mexican chicken" I told them and they believing it was kids being kids laughed at my story. They knew that there was nothing to be ashamed of. But for me a young El Salvadorean girl growing up in two cultures it was the first memory of recognizing my differences. It was at that tender age of grade 1 that I knew that my cultures expressions always had the chance of being made fun of. In that moment I learned I must hide in order for acceptance to occur. I didn't want to stand out. I just wanted to "fit" in.
I don't have all the "right" ways to express what is happening in this current state of the world in regards to race. It's not a new thing. Racism exists. This post is a simple small window into my world view that perhaps you didn't know exists within me. Within this 30 year old woman exists that little girl with her big hair and insecurities attempting to raise her voice for change.
I encourage you to take the time to fully listen to your friends of colour who are your loved ones in regards to the hurdles that they have had to overcome by the colour of the skin.
These are my thoughts for now...
To be continued..."
Posted with permission by Denise Valle
Today: Like most, I'm trying to figure things out. Sometimes that's day by day, moment by moment, and even breath by breath.