At the beginning of 2021, I learned what languishing is (first hand). I had a hard time explaining, even to myself, what I was going through. It felt different than depression, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it. Then, when I read Adam Grant’s article in the New York Times months later, it confirmed what I had been feeling.
Something needed to change and I set out to make that uncomfortable feeling go away (before it led to depression). In searching for one thing, I ended up doing a lot of things (all within a few months of each other).
If I have been slow to respond to emails and texts, this is likely the reason why.
These things done separately bring about their own level of stress. These things are all positive. These things brought me out of my comfort zone. But together (especially for someone who does not like change or taking risks) it may have been too much for me to handle. Hello anxiety. That said I do not regret any of these things.
Now a few months removed from all of those things I have learned a few lessons firsthand:
Today: Like most, I'm trying to figure things out. Sometimes that's day by day, moment by moment, and even breath by breath.