I hope you are well and living your best life.
That is what I pray for you. That you leave behind the hurts, mistrust, and sorrow to live a better life. As an adolescent I used to think God was punishing me for some wrong doing (from a past life perhaps). I thought it could not get any worse than this. 'This was my cancer'.
It did get much worse. (You've read about it in my previous posts - I will not bore you now).
The point is, as I look back, with experience and perspective, I see it differently. There were hard lessons, but not because of something I did. People sometimes say you go through hardships to make you stronger. I don't necessarily believe that. I'm as weak as ever, I just have some perspective, a good doctor, good therapist, and faith.
It is a shaky faith, but faith nonetheless.
Just as I am trying to live my best life; I wish you well and hope you are living your best life.
Today: Like most, I'm trying to figure things out. Sometimes that's day by day, moment by moment, and even breath by breath.